Here's a story of a little girl,
 Living in her own lonely world,
 A hidden note, A secret crush,
 A little boy who talks too little.

Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
 And when you smile I knew its goona be you,
 But you don't even know my name,
 You're too busy doing your own things,

And I want you to know,
 If you ever lose your way,
 I won't let you go anymore.

If I cut my hair,
 If I change my clothes,
 Will you notice me?
 Will you still know who i am

If I bite my lip,
 If I say hello,
 Will you notice me?
 Will you accept for what i am?


PROFILEY

Pei Ling
Female
2nd March 1988

DESIRESY
SHOPPING!!
MORE MONEY!!

LEAVE ME A TAGY

EXITSY

bEckY L0 pUi Ki.

kElvIn H0r y0nG WeN.

mAggIe |im mEi Xi.

LoW QioNg XiA.

wEnDy w0nG wAn Li.

nG JiA XiNg.

vIcknEsH.

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Thursday, February 28, 2008
3:36 PM

just fcuk the idea off and let me be in peace

at least for this year

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, February 01, 2008
10:50 PM

Vbash 2008!

its was the highlight of my NUS life (up till now)
initially when i first joined my cca - nus student union
i took alot of courage to walk into the room
i knew nobody inside there was no friends with me
its was a lonely and horrible and helpless feeling
i told myself i need to be strong and independent
i need to take initiatives i need to take part in things that i like
even if there is no company

however when there is activities i dread to go
i feel that i will be left out all alone doing my own things
its was only until i decided to join the committee for the event
the interview was harsh the project director was strict
i thought of giving it up and running to the exit
i secretly hoped that i will not be selected
but i was accepted...
out of 50-60 people who came

the first few meetings were really going nowhere
i know none of them i talk to none of them
sitting there alone with me myself and i
everyone already have their own clinques
and so i kept giving excuses that i am working
in fact i am really working
hence i had no time for meeting
sometimes its just that i am afraid of loneliness
its was only until the tough period
1 month before the event
i got myself much more involved
i attended meetings
i help out in calling up sponsors
i help out in delivering and recieving goods
i help to do publicity stuns:

1. i run around the school canteen like madwoman screaming and shouting after someone snatched my vbash ticket

2. i scream using the loudhailer walking around like nobody business

i stayover in school to help out pasting posters
i stayed late night everyday to mend the booth

and ...

finally the event was over
its was a huge sellout!
great performance
large crowd
we appeared on the newspaper!


dancing and music-ing
drinking and lots of drinking
and partying whole night after the event
or even weeks before the event
i am so into clubbing now

i am really glad that i did joined the event
i made lots and tons of friends
people who worked together with you
those people who shared the same memories as you
able to relate to you able to crap with you
inner jokes between you and me
people who helped you here n there
i will really miss those days
whereby we stayed late to settle stuff
we struggled our way to school early morning
and not forgetting me crying after my physiotherapy
people who offered their tissues, love, care and concern

now i no longer dread myself to the student union room
though i am still abit afraid of seeing unfamiliar faces
fear that i will be all alone in the room with no friends
but at least i feel so much secured pulling that door
entering into that room
cos i know those memories stay =)

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, November 30, 2007
8:06 PM

why do you have to repeat again and again
everything was already in the past
i dont wish to think abt it
everytime when i thought that i can face you happily
forgetting what you have done to me
you have to rake the past
remind me of the hurt you inclined on me
you never once failed to say its for my own good
its the reputation
its for your wonderful future
its the cert matters
its the job salary you hold next time
its the school
its the school
its the school
can you just shut up for once
and quit the habit of repeating it again and again
you never know how much it hurts whenever you said it
you never know how i feel and what i want
you never know how unhappy i am
what kind of environment i am in
dragging myself daily to school
yes i did accepted it postively
i attended lecture i attended tutorials
i participated actively in student union
but its the feeling you cant understand
its like you are being forced to do that
no matter how unwilling you are
how much resistance you try to put up
i just cant fight you
i cant even communicate with you
even raising my opinions sharing my views with you
its seem like it only happens in the dream
whereby i can talk freely telling you my aspiration
and you can relate to what i am thinking
giving me full support
in your eyes i am forever a misled child
i am always choosing the wrong path
i am always bringing you disgrace
i cant outshine other kids down the neighbourhood corridor
i cant bring you the glory you want
i cant make my own decisions
i am just so wrong
sometimes i wonder if this is the way
why dont you give birth to some retarded child
who dont have their own thinking
maybe then you can impose all your will on them
without them opposing you every now and then
i really wished to forget all the past
i thought everything was well buried
we are living happily acting as a perfect nuclear family
yet you still insist you are the right one
you are so glad that i choose to follow your way
and allowing you to critise others and fault them
its ridiculous let me tell you
they are much better off than me
cos they can have their own choice
they are allowed to choose their own path
i am a coward here following others
leading an aimless life
continously burying myself in the pit of wound
just shut up and let me continue my life
maybe in the future
i will be able forget those wounds
and embrace those mistakes i made
i doubt so seriously

Will you ever notice me...

Thursday, November 15, 2007
11:06 PM

sometimes i wish life could be simpler
i hate studying
esp studying those i am nt interested in
i detest schooling
esp in an environment that u hate to be
i wish life could be enjoying
i desire to have a relaxing life
everyday working
earning income
stress free
going shopping with frens
drinking coffee
eating supper

how i wish life could be tt easy

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, October 19, 2007
11:45 PM

每次当你转身的时候
我的泪在流
却只告诉自己让你
看到我笑容

每次当你转身的时候
我的心在痛
只能默默看着你
就消失在我眼中
让你走

Will you ever notice me...

1:14 AM

i hate my life
but how can i compare to those less fortunate one?
i can do nothing but to suffer silently
trust is no longer in my world
everyone is going back on their words
i can no longer open up to anyone

Will you ever notice me...

Friday, September 21, 2007
11:07 PM

yeah thx god for the one week term break
thou its like super short and to be exact
its not a break
its jus for u to catch up with ur studies
finish up all ur projects n assigments
do some ur own research and read more supplementary readings
it sounds so yucky
ok worst of all u have to prepare ur mid term exam
which i tink the god noes i leading a sad life
so he decided to grant me only one mid exam!
compared to others which has two or more
i am lucky! =)
tml and sunday i will be going back to my shop to work
hurray cheers!
plus its not dkny its the old brand i used to work for!
super happy to meet them and join their group again
long awaited chance!

some are jus so thick skinned
and no matter how pissed i am
they are unaware and continue to be fake
gross!

Will you ever notice me...

Sunday, September 09, 2007
6:19 PM

hello everybody!
i wonder who is reading anyway
yes it had been donkey years that i have not blogged
i am jus too busy and abit lazy to blog
now that i have stop working at dkny during the weekends
and i have more or less settle down for my uni
i am free to blog again!
bt not very often thou
cos uni life is hectic
its even worst than jc life
becos everything requires self study self research self photocopy
now i truly understand why they encourage us to buy a laptop
becos u pratically need to check ur mails everyday
they would post announcement there in the late night
expecting you to read it immediately when they post
they would throw the stack of notes they gg thru in the lect tml
jus a day before the lect commence
i emphasized again they post it during the night!
who the hell will refresh their mailbox every min?
worst of all the frens there are not really as close to u
they leave after their lesson without saying bye
they print their own notes without informing you
make u look like a slacker who canot catch up with the fast pace

in additional in uni i will have to wear my own clothes
oh gosh no more uniforms for me
i have to depend heavily on my fashion sense
which sometimes sux to the core
i fear tt people laugh at how u wear
i am practically buying a new set of clothing every week
its burning into my pocket tt i can hardly cope
textbook n endless printing of notes
is also a source of burning income
hope tt i can start controlling myself
frens of my, pls stop me when i attempt to buy smth
i can even go shopping in school!

time to go back to do my tutorials~~

Will you ever notice me...